You are what you think you are

As things continue to evolve prior to the publishing of my book, I find myself reflecting on all of the variables that needed to line up for this to be happening. It can boggle the mind to allow yourself the understanding that comes with connecting the dots of the bigger picture.

First dot: Born into a marriage that wasn't healthy.
Second dot: Abandoned to survive in the 1970's foster care system.
Third dot: Six years old and having the conversation with God.
Fourth dot: Grew up trying to being a good person regardless of what was done to me.
Fifth dot: As an adult refusing to succumb to the woe is me attitude for the loss of my childhood.
Sixth dot: Getting and losing adult love because I didn't feel worthy of any of it.
Seventh dot: Raising my only child to feel love and acceptance. Be the adult I needed as a child.
Eighth dot: Starting my spiritual journey to find my soul.
Ninth dot: Writing a book that was divinely sent about soul searching.
Tenth dot: Understanding the power of my thoughts.
Eleventh dot: Understanding my intuitiveness and trusting its guidance.
Twelfth dot: Trusting that after nineteen years it was time to publish the book.
Thirteenth dot: Knowing at fifty-five years old, that I'm fulfilling my promise made when I was six years old to "trust God and I'd learn what it was all for". 
Fourteenth & subsequent dots: my new reality TBD.   :-)

Too many dots to share, but you get the idea. All things in my life needed to happen precisely how it happened in order for me to be an example of what having faith looks like. The success of The Sun Neither Rises nor Sets will not be determined by monetary gain, but by how many souls are allowed to wake up after its imperfect human reads the book. <3