The Pauses

My work ethic is superb. I received a watch from one of my places of employment for going an entire year without missing a day of work. That same energy is given to my personal life. I give it all no matter what I am doing. Knowing that about myself, I can understand why there were times that an unasked for pause was needed. 

I've been given three such pauses over my 55 years. All three can be traced back to my unwillingness to listen to my soul when I knew I should have listened. All three ended up with me receiving an unwelcomed opportunity to pause and listen. I had chosen to ignore the whisper, the tap on the shoulder, and the two by four over the head. When this happens there is no alternative than to have your higher power give you the KO punch as a last ditch effort to knock some sense into you.

It was during these pauses that I was able to reflect on my life, not in a woe is me sort of way, but in awe that I was worthy of the effort being given to me to gain the understanding that I needed. As I move into this next phase of my life's journey, I can lovingly reflect on all the intricacies that had to happen exactly as they did for my now to be taking place. 

For being a loyal and willing soul (the majority of the time) I will be able to live out my last 30 years or so fulfilling my purpose. That sounds like a lot of time, but it is not at all a lot of time. I feel blessed to be able to round out my life with a depth of peace that can only happen when you have listened to your soul. 

I encourage everyone to take a pause, or use the pause(s) you were given, to understand your soul's purpose here. We think time is on our side to figure that out, but it is not.

Pause. Listen.