Table for two, please

There can only be two chairs at the table when you are soul searching. Yours and your soul's. Any more than that and it's no longer soul searching that you are doing. The ego has no chair at this table. 

To find your soul you must first be able to like you. When you like you, then you must learn how to love you. This can only be achieved by listening to your soul, not your ego. Learning how to do this is a marathon, not a sprint. 

We all have a defining moment when we are given the opportunity to at least acknowledge that we have a soul. What you decide to do with that moment of clarity will put you on your path to finding or denying your soul. For me it was January 15th, 2002 after my tumultuous eight year common law relationship ended. That was a very dark time for me. A soul searching time. Letting go of ego time. I was 34 years old.

Then on January 1st, 2004 I picked up a pen and started to write. It wasn't slow and thoughtful writing. The words came fast and furious. I wasn't given time to think about them. They just flowed non stop all day everyday for a year. Then one day, just as quickly as the writing started, it stopped abruptly. I was emotionally, mentally, and physically exhausted. It wasn't lost on me that I had just written something profound. I called what I had written "Life's Holy Rhymes". 

December 2010 - I typed the handwritten pages into a binder.
September 2022 - I set out on the path to become a published author.

I have been "single" since January 15th, 2002. No dating, no relationships. In the beginning it was because of the hurt. Then my childhood conversation with God at six years old rang in my ears. "Trust me and you will learn what it is for".  I had to sit at my table for two with my soul to be able to understand my calling. 

Finding one's soul takes commitment. It takes a willingness to release the ego. It takes a willingness to sit at a table set for two, when it is just you there. It won't matter what others think. It will only matter what you think. Now you are free to just be.