Sabotage

People often use self-sabotage as a means to make their perceived reality align with their perceived inner beliefs. If they intentionally mess up, they feel they're in control of the failure. 

As much as people crave all the "good" things in life, they have been taught by other misguided people to expect nothing. It is a gross misunderstanding by many that only certain people are allowed the "good" things in life. This is incorrect. 

If you are one of the many who believes you are not worthy, trust me when I tell you that you are. You can't see that at the moment because you are in survival mode. When you are in survival mode, nothing besides that will matter. Understanding this truth is the beginning stages of you getting everything you want from life. <3